I've gone to bed way too late these last few days, and Walter even woke up last night for an hour and we had to do some sleeping triage with Henry in our bed while we calmed a loudly crying Walter, but these last few days have been heavenly.
I can't pinpoint an exact reason, but it just feels so good. We've got a routine going, Henry is more helpful and I can reason with him a little bit more. Walter is getting bigger, more toddler-like, more boy-like. I feel calmer, and even putting the boys to bed on my own last night while Ryan worked late I was good, in a rhythm, and not completely done/exhausted.
Also, I'm really in love with my boys right now. Not that I wasn't before, but, they're really lovable right now. They're not little robots, but even with their meltdowns or sadness when something doesn't go their way, they're just lovable.
I don't know if I'm doing my feelings any justice right now by trying to put into words how I feel, but it just feels good. I'm sure this new year has something to do with it, too. My outlook is better, I feel more positive, I've been writing down catchy little life themes to help me get by like 'you have to finish what you start' and 'life is tough but so are you.'
There was even snow this morning and so we watched a movie, made cookies, played.... It was a good day to be the mama of Henry and Walter today.
++ In 101 in 1001 news, I started my gluten free/dairy free month yesterday so for the cookies this morning we made these peanut butter oatmeal cookies. I made some with chocolate chips for the boys and some with raisins for me, since I didn't have any dairy free chocolate chips in the house. They're easy and yummy and definitely satisfied my baked-goods-because-it's-snowing craving.